On being a victim
Friday, September 02, 2005
WARNING: The material in this post is extremely personal, and I am not convinced it makes sense or even comes close to dealing with what I am trying to say. I just needed to get it off my chest.. and I did.. SO THERE.
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It is amazing sometimes how something from your past can mix with the present and bring back feelings you don't entirely understand, or even know how to put into words. Such is the case with me, right now, and the things I am doing in my Domestic Violence class meshing with my life. Not only am I thinking about the lines between where Domestic Violence starts and ends, but something about right now is causing a lot of old relationship/friendship stuff to come to the surface in my psyche as well.
I (like many, I assume, because I like to think I am normal) have had several friendships, relationships in which people have told me to either "be careful" or "get out" because they didn't necessarily like the way I was being treated. This makes me wonder how much about someone's victim status is really self identified, or self assumed. I have never identified as a victim, or even a survivor for that matter. I guess the thing for me is that while my trust in others has caused me to let go of some power, I have never felt like I couldn't take it back. That I didn't take it back, or that it was ever inherently theirs. More thinking required.....
posted by ZEUS @ 1:06 PM,
